Yesterday you said tomorrow.
Ever feel like failure over and over and over and over and over and over again?
Yeah, that’s me. And I have the blogs to prove it. But I read something in my classroom that basically said, “You don’t fail until you quit.” I haven’t quit yet.
I have until January to reach my goals. But every day counts. I had taken a turn, just like I’ve incessantly explained in past posts; A non-positive turn. Gorging on junk every day, all day. This time, in lieu of quitting cold turkey, I decided to wean myself. Time to get off of mummy’s proverbial breast milk.
Instead of eating junk all day and all night. I decided that I would eat super healthy all day, I do like vegetables, grains, legumes, and healthy crap, so that was fine. Then at one part during the day, I’d have my processed food attack. And each day, the amount of calories I ate via processed food decreased. This form of weaning led me to walking round Family Dollar looking for my fix and not wanting much. Each day, my desire for junk decreased. And yesterday I only had 920 calories worth of poor edibles as opposed to the 2,000 – 3,000 (and perhaps more when I wasn’t counting) calories I was consuming before.
To answer any questions one might have of me: No, I of course do not still have my something pack..perhaps it was a 1 pack I had gotten from exercise? It was something, my tummy was indeed flattening. But yes, that is gone. My arms are larger and my thighs followed suit. I also figured out that I am one for self-punishment or deprivation – no not in a violent way of sorts. To explain: I like Pinterest. I like blogging. I would get on Pinterest regularly and go to the Physical Fitness (or now called Health and Fitness) category and paroose to my heart’s content. Likewise, I’d blog about my success and shortcomings, food I made, etc. on a regular basis. When I stopped doing well, I stopped all of that. I felt as though I wasn’t worthy to paroose on Pinterest any longer. I’d only occasionally get on it, and when I did, I’d avoid the Health and Fitness category at all costs. Who am I to look at those articles if I wasn’t doing crap to help myself? And who am I to enjoy the past-time of blogging if I was eating like a fat huffalump? I wasn’t. (Or at least not in my mind)
But I am back. I’m here. And I’m back. The only reason though is because I feel as though I am redeeming my worth. I have plenty of psychological things that need work.
I made a smashing breakfast this morn. Sweet Potato Pancakes, babe(;
I furiously combined all of the dry ingredients and the applesauce, tore the skin of the sweet potato into the pieces and mixed it and the sweet potatoey part into the concoction and whipped whipped whipped. Then I added the water, whipped whipped again, heated the skillet, and poured on the batter. When my pancakes were complete, I topped them off with 1 tbsp. Earth Balance spread onto all of them and a little bit of sugar. Oh yes, and I sliced 4 strawberries. This was all accompanied by H2O. 650 calories of yum!
To top everything that I’ve been saying off, TODAY IS A FIRST. I am great with firsts. That’s probably a reason why I did so well in JULY. I began my change on the 1st of July and succeeded for 3 and a half weeks – those were good days, love. Today is the day. Today is the first. Today is the first day that I will proceed in completing my weaning mission. No processed foods. Say whaat?? Indeed. I shall go without and blog about my progress this evening. I’ll even go on Pinterest today! And venture my little way into the Health and Fitness category. Say whaat times two?? 🙂
My mind and body have worth. “Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body,” 1 Corinthians 6:19-20